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懷念

2012-01-20T21:16:00.002+08:00

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2012-01-07T14:05:00.002+08:00

some of my friends are doing well, in their life, next phase. happy for them.how about me? still planning and hoping for the best.

2011 ends

2012-01-02T22:27:00.008+08:00

a new 2012 begins. an old year has passed and have become memories regardless of how you chose to keep in your memory. the bad ones were there to keep you stronger. here are some that i treasured the most.

hope can do sth with myself more in coming new year.
despite friends gatherings and weddings, trip to hk and bandung, watch faye wong live for my 2nd time, and graduation, i can feel myself getting cornered into an unhappy side more.

maybe need more traveling by myself.. to get inspired by different cultures and new places and more inspiring ppl..

but i know happiness lies in my hand..

is it me?

2011-12-30T20:09:00.002+08:00

i wanted to know. if it's possible. it's been a wait since 2010.
a recovering people pleaser.
and yet i know i am still chasing shadows in my head.

=.=

2011-12-16T18:49:00.002+08:00

the one

2011-12-06T20:49:00.002+08:00

the perfect companion.. the perfect lover.... the perfect color... the perfect smile... the perfect job... the perfect life... the perfect goal.. the perfect dream... the perfect signature.. the perfect tone.. the perfect example.. the perfect candidate.. the perfect kiss... the perfect ............

to go or not to go
to love or not to love
to dream or not to dream
to act or not to act
to be or not to be

young adult

2011-11-17T01:14:00.005+08:00

all this time. was in a long winter's nap. waiting to be awoken. as friends who had blog writing as one of the sentences filled in their interest section in any social networking services evolved to have more other priorities in life, i found myself tend to be like them too. turning to be someone less productive to release my inner thoughts.

as i turned 30, i realized things are not what it may seem. i am still being a young adult. still innocent and accepting the fact that i will commit mistakes. looking for happiness and company as in friends. everyone grows old, but not everyone grows up. maybe until the extend of charlize theron in her new role as below.

2011-07-22T09:07:00.000+08:00

On this day, God wants you to know

... that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step. You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you t...rue to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times...

lappie-less

2011-06-22T22:00:00.003+08:00

life without picture/sound together does not stimulate my brain. need one lappie that can stream my movie archives without faults and make me smile all over again. and at least inspired me.

forward

2011-06-22T21:40:00.003+08:00

have drove a lot these few mths. stop by places i never been. stop by places i can say i am familiar now. stop by places that some friends stay@jasin, seremban, kluang, jb. and purposedly stay there so i can meet them often. gathering.

thx for the position that enabled me to have this privilege that i treasure. although i know i am not suited for this position, i gave it a damn try and almost risked my life and being for it.

the aftermath, i realised life is so short. it's now or never. just have to make a big move to find something you truly am interested or passionate in, or at least SAFE. cos you have your family and friends and loved ones that care for you. He made me realised I should be brave to step forward and make it happen.

look forward.

things beyond ctrl

2011-06-15T20:28:00.002+08:00

things havent turned well lately. am feeling doubt of myself. i feel not myself, never been so f***ed before, maybe few times before. i know there's a way out of this, just dunno when.

maybe there are. i cant disappoint myself and ppl who keep on supporting me.
i know i need so much prayer support and faith in Him and myself to get through gracefully.

God, pls grant me wisdom and confidence to strive harder.

love

2011-05-15T20:31:00.004+08:00

love is real
real is love
love is feeling
feeling love
love is wanting
to be loved

love is touch
touch is love
love is reaching
reaching love
love is asking
to be loved

love is you
you and me...
love is knowing
we can be...

love is free
free is love
love is living
living love
love is needing
to be loved

graduation and what's next?

2011-04-26T00:43:00.007+08:00

finally..
the years, the people that I got to know, the experiences, the tears and laughters.
and the sacrifices.

thx. too many ppl to thank for. God, my family and my friends. thx to who attended and to manage to overcome heat stroke. marcus all the way from kch. flowers from jon, david n rachel, gifts from marcus, peter n meifong, u care, su ping, yongting, rey, and my labmates. all the wishes. all u care/ccc friends. all my labmates and my partners in crime.

and thx to all the 'farewell' meals and wishes.

some have moved on for new stuff, new status, drifted away, or still keep in touch. and i am just feeling to start again new.

what's next for me? what are the options?

3 weeks and 3 days

2011-04-26T00:20:00.003+08:00

3 weeks and 3 days I have left Penang for good. Some friends have bet that I will likely return back to the Pg soil after maybe just 2 mths. I indeed miss Pg. I have been there for almost 3650 days.

I am sure I will never love KL. I wont be. Feeel so small here. I wonder how long.

Will be back to blog about things happened lately in March (3 big events).

make it happen - 2011

2011-02-11T16:34:00.000+08:00

back in my hometown after 2 years - seriously for Chinese New Year.

managed to visit most of the ppl wanted to see, and some more ppl i havent expected to see after 10 years or more. other than the layers of fat accumulation on the face, waist and thigh; the lines on the faces; of course everyone has encountered changes inner or physically. it's great to able meet those i have resisted to meet - the 98 batch maybe because i didnt know how to deal with them. haha. but maybe now alcohol and cigarette can help now!, i am not an addict, just casual smoker and drinker according to the event.

discovered that i have mellowed over time. maybe i still dun have that fire in me or maybe it still wait for the right moment to be ablaze, thx to those making it happen.

and maybe family members are getting older with time. or the feel the compromise in me with life and balance.

but i still want to make it happen!

salander & garfield

2011-01-16T11:54:00.002+08:00

didnt feel too much about the upcoming movies@ the girl with the dragon tattoo and spiderman reboot.

I saw the original the girl with the dragon tattoo in hongkong. really impressed and liked the movie. but this new pic potraying rooney mara in the take as lisbeth salander seems maybe they are on the right track. the new dec 2011 movie will have names like david fincher, daniel craig and trent reznor on board.

andrew garfield was an interesting choice for spiderman reboot. was entirely zero about his movies, but 'the social network' and 'never let me go' did introduce him to me, seems like this pic gave me a lot of comic book feel, something very different than the previous spiderman trilogy. emma stone, who was awesome in easy a, is on board as the main female interest.

maybe the new casting/reboot is not as awful as they may seem. will look forward to the original lisbeth salander, noomie rapaca in upcoming canceled alien prequel that morphed into a new alien sci fi movie to be directed by ridley scott - prometheus.

that's all for the movies.

2011-01-13T00:03:00.002+08:00

guess probably will write a lot soon for next path choice. wish me luck..

somewhere

2011-01-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

sometimes watching my life and myself played in character in movies.
although i dun realise it at that instant, but somehow u know in your heart how he feels.
why he never really smile. why he just wanna be silly to capture attention. why sex is just like a routine work w/o passion.
why he just wait for that exciting moment to happen although he knows it wont last too long.

it's me ... somewhere.

but now i am waiting for the new. it's supposed to be this yr. when i knew for a long time that i'll start everything by 30.

'somewhere'